A time for change...

With a new year ,as everyone always says, comes a new start. But this is the first time in a LONG time that i have actually gone full steam ahead into the scary abyss known as 'change'.
Its not just me I am sure that feels this way, all i see is change occurring around me on a daily basis. Just this morning i helped my mum take 4 bin bags worth of clothes to the local charity shop, and sitting at the cafe around the corner eating my panini, i heard at least 3 women complaining about how they have been so 'bad' over the holidays and need to loose 17 stone immediately.
Usually i would have laughed but i fear that being surrounded by people not happy in their own situations- you know constantly clearing out, moving, complaining (oh my back, oh my husband, oh my life etc) is in fact just like someone putting a huge mirror in front of me and saying in a very smug voice "see you are not so different after all."
  So with that i vow that this year i won't do my usual "shit i have no money, no career, no life- therefore in 2011 i will get money, a career and a big fat life" as it hasn't proved most beneficial to my ego or my bank when i have fallen in the past at the first hurdle. This time i have taken advice from my usually quiet little heart and learnt to do nothing. And by doing nothing i don't mean sitting around doing the obvious- nothing, i mean taking time to listen to what my heart wants. We are all so easily prone to attracting fear and stress into our lives, that we are so disconnected with our heart or soul passions. We constantly go 'i must' 'i need' or my usual 'i should be doing more' and sitting around sewing (which i love) listening to music (which i love) and painting little pretty pictures (which i love) will get me aaabssoolluuteeelyy nowhere in these modern times.
  But the way i see it is by having all these manifestations whizzing around my head every day making me feel unsettled and unsafe is just another way of me saying 'i don't have enough faith in you.' Because of course doing the things i love will never make me money, and people will never buy my work, and nobody ever got rich from easy work.
   But of course all this is completely untrue, and people all over the world are making a fantastic living from sewing, and listening to music and painting pretty little pictures. Clearly the problem is that I wont be able to do it too. So from now on i am going to tell a different story, instead of saying what is wrong in my life, and discussing over and over in my head why i am not happy, i am actually going to take a minute to do nothing and realize that actually my life is quite lovely and i am surrounded by lovely people and i am very much at the moment making money (even if it is a rather minuscule amount) by living what i love.
So now i await the fruitfulness of life to come tapping at my door so i can say 'well hello you, yes do come in I'll make us some ginger tea..." instead of the usual "Oh no not you, you can't come in yet I'm too poor, ugly, unsuccessful etc for you to succeed in my life yet...come back when i am better"
I mean its only been one day and i have already joined the blog world, clearly i now feel i have something worth saying.

With that here is one of my 'pretty little pictures' to help support all those passionate people who sometimes worry a bit too much.
I hope that you all begin to Live what you Love.